Sometimes we’re up and sometimes, no matter how much we try and avoid it, hate it or deny it…we’re down. You just can’t have one without the other. They go hand in hand with being alive.
Down patches are tough. They’re actually horrible. They can make you feel super lonely, confused and numb – but they are normal.
I was taught to look at a down patch like I would a huge, big wave in the ocean. Sometimes you can see it coming and you know what you’re in for. You’re prepared for it. You float over it or dive under it and you pop out the other side once it’s passed. Other times, they seem to come out of nowhere. You literally turn around to get smashed to the ground by a huge dumper of a thing that takes your breath away and leaves you panting for air with hair in your eyes, snot running down your face and sand up your bum! It’s not pleasant. It’s not pretty! Sometimes it’s just one wave. Sometimes it’s a whole set.
However, there is one thing you can always count on with waves; no matter how big and horrible they can be, they will always flatten out. Every. Single. Time.
It’s not our job to try and control the waves. They belong to the ocean. It’s our job to learn how to ride the waves in the best way we can. It’s our job to make sure that we don’t get stuck down and instead find ways to continually get back up again, so that we’re there to enjoy the next smooth patch that is most certainly coming our way.
To anyone else who is battling the waves right now and going through a tough patch, I sincerely and honestly send you my love. Please remind yourself as much as I’ve been reminding myself, that it’s normal and it’s okay to feel sad or flat or down. It’s part of being alive. Sometimes there’s a big reason for feeling it and sometimes there’s no reason at all. Be kind to yourself. This too shall pass.
To my family and everyone that knew my Poppa and is currently grieving with a heavy heart –my heart is with you all today. I’m not able to be there physically but I’m sincerely there in heart. I’m thinking of you all xx
To my Poppa – may your soul be at peace. I love you xx
To down patches – I appreciate that you’re part of life. I also appreciate that you really do suck!